I am not sure how my husband does it. I am not sure I could last more than an hour if I had to live with myself when I am this way. To say I get short tempered would be the nice way to put it. This is one of the parts of turning fifty that I would definitely change back in a heart beat. The combination of past and present (if you get my drift) makes for a bad chemical, hormonal, emotional and whateveral you want to add to that mix. It actually makes for a dangerous one. I find that my mind wanders to angry thoughts, thoughts that only a few days ago I would not have conceived of. If you cross my path in a way I perceive as wrong, even if you didn’t even know I was there, I might have thoughts of how I would slowly make your life a living h… oops sorry there I go. I use to know when I would be feeling this way and my husband could take the appropriate measures to insure that he could make clean getaways. Now well, your guess is as good as mine, and for how long I will be feeling this way, sorry charlie it could be weeks. Though I sure hope not because, though they may not believe me when I say this, I don’t like myself when I am this way. I want to feel happy again! Until then RUN, it is probably the safest thing for you.
When my mood and the moon get the best of me.
18
Sep