Monthly Archives: June 2014

Today my husband turned 51 finally catching back up to me. So no more “Old lady” jokes for another year. Turning 51 was no big thing just another day, in another week, in another month, in another year. 50 was a nightmare. I really don’t know why, maybe I just thought that it meant that I was really, really old!  Turns out I am not, or at least I don’t feel like I am inside. Now my body may disagree with that statement at times (OK most of the time) but inside the person that I picture myself to be is not the one that I see looking back at me in the mirror. It is a much younger, skinner, happier me. I wonder why I still hold on to that ideal image of myself. Looking back on that sentence it sounds as if I have a rather large arrogance problem, but unfortunately it is quite the opposite. And that posses another side to that question. I wonder why I even hold on to THAT ideal of myself. I am not even really the same person I was back then. Parts of that “me” are still there but a lot of me has changed, matured I suppose, lived, and all that brings about a different “me” inside and out.  My husband and I have known each other since we were 11. That is a long time when you are 51 :). There has been a good bit of changing in both of us since then. I feel so blessed that he has stayed committed to me through them, I could not imagine a world without him and as he changes I never do on that point. So I guess all this to say that we are finally passed the BIG 50 and have survived and have a good prognosis for the remainder of this decade. I guess 50 is the new 40.