Category Archives: feeling sorry for yourself

I am ready to call it quits. Not really, but it does sound intriguing. I have been running around these last few days getting all I can possibly get done and when I turn around it doesn’t look like I have done a thing. I am sure that I am the only one in this world who has this problem. I am sure of this since it helps me when I want to roll around in my pity party. Don’t stop me, this feels good. I mean after all no one else has it this bad!!! I mean really, I have a husband who just had surgery on not one but BOTH hands (think nuts and you would be close), and a knee that I so gracefully made mincemeat out of by tripping over a basket of clean clothes (I never said that I was this City’s idea of a Miss Nimble). I am finding that I have to take more time to do ANYTHING. I mean doing something takes me away from my hurting “Honey Bunny” and that makes him sad and therefore me sad. Then there is my knee reminding me of my lack of elegance and my back likes to remind me that I am now 50 and things are on a steady and rapid decline. But I digress, you would never feel like this as I am sure that I am the only one who has trouble with their body after 50 (or even before if we were to be honest). Add to my list of laments all the crazy hormones that run through me that make me want to break down sobbing one minute to debating how to go “Dexter” on someone the next. When you add this all together you come up with a pretty sad looking life. So once again I say, I know I am the only one who goes through this and I am the only one that would ever even understand this! Right!! Of course wrong! I know that my problems are just a drop in the bucket compared to what some others have and I must keep reminding myself of that. I am 50, and I still have to remind myself of that. You would think that by now I would have gotten this down, that I would be past the pity party stage of life, but I’m not and to be honest I am not sure when, if ever, I can be. I know that God loves me, just the way I am. And He helps me to keep moving closer to Him. Christianity 101 you say, yes, but still something I have to remind myself of. Sometimes it is just good to write (type) it out and get it out. This has helped.